www.jvlz.blogspot.com. Okgo.

www.jvlz.blogspot.com. Okgo.

I can't take this LJ shit anymore. I'm moving back to blogger. I think I'm inspired to write more on blogspot. Fucking LJ is pissing me off.

Anyway, before I leave this blog for good, I just want to make something very clear.

I deserve to be happy too.

Current Music: Goo Goo Dolls - Iris

Of all things that hurt, love unrequited is worst.

I'm just a kid trying to grow up whilst trying his best to be true to himself. Don't be cruel to me.

Alternatively, I could castrate you.

Current Music: Ferry Corsten - Right of Way

It's been a refreshing few weeks, without the usual partying on weekends and such. I'm gaining so much more out of this, having so much more fun than what I previously would have thought.

So many new people has entered my life and I'm grateful for each addition, except for the real lame ducks. But then again, I don't keep lame ducks around anymore, do I?

I went to watch a play just now - Irfan Kasban's We Live in a Box. I'm not much into theatrework, as I've been to quite a few in the past and ended up going away very disappointed. It's usually self-indulgent and pretentious. But oh my, this one's quite a wondrous work. The acting was really good and the plot and message was powerful. Of course, no work is perfect and needless to say, this isn't an exception. But 8/10's a fair score to give I guess.

I just heard on the news that an MP got set on fire. We're really getting sick of the bullshit already aren't we now? 

Now to settle back and wait for the backlash.

Okay, so anyway, I was talking to Meryvn about the play and we digressed and I don't know how we ended up on the subject of marriage and then I realised one thing. It's actually fucking stupid to tie yourself down to that one person and then spend the rest of your life together, come hell or highwater.

Okay maybe it's just me. I don't know. Your thoughts perhaps?

Dinnertime.

Current Music: F.I.R - Yue Liang Wan (yeah wtf right chinese song. I know I know.)

I have been replaced. Thanks.

So, whats next.


"I love you in the morning,
When you're still hungover..."

Current Music: Bloc Party

Love is self-sacrifice.

Love is the highest form of matyrdom.

Love is not selfish.

Love is human.

Current Music: Oceanlab - Beautiful Together

I don't know what to do. I'm sorry.

I'm fighting with myself, choosing between doing the right thing and saving myself. Such a quandry. Fucking dilemma. Devil and deep blue sea. Sheisse.

What should I do?

Now I'm truly fucked.

Redemption might be lost to me again. Both ways.

So, it's the new year. Hello 2009, byebye 2008. It had been a good run, but now that's you're over, lets see how 2009 will turn out.

I did post my thoughts on 2008 on facebook, so I'm not gonna repeat myself. However, I do wanna list out my resolutions for this year.

This year I resolve to...

1. not be so nice to people
2. suture my heart
3. close myself up
4. insult anyone who gets too close
5. burn bridges that don't matter

Yeah, they're all pretty much negative stuff. But who gives a fuck. I've been nice this year and by right Santa should pay me a visit. But he never came. So I'm angry. I'll fucking fist him if I ever see him. 

So that's about it for now. I still reek of alkie. So I'm gonna like go concuss on my bed now. Hmmm. Yeah.

Guten nacht!

Current Music: Chris Coco - Hazy Lazy (Afterlife Mix)